Its been a good minute since I last wrote about my thoughts.  As we are approaching the end of the year, I thought this would be a perfect time to share some.

I came across in my memories on Facebook a question I asked all my friends a year ago today, “What’s your word for 2020?”  I chose the word Peaceful! I was excited! I actually really dislike starting a new year because a year can define if it was good or bad.  When we talk we may say, “Back in 2005 is when I got diagnosed with cancer.” or “I got married in 2017.”  Alot of times we remember a year by a big event either good or bad and so starting a new year just isn’t my favorite!

As we are approaching a new year, I want to be hopeful.  I want to be hopeful that it will get better. That together as a country we can be united, that this virus fades away and also all these families and businesses that got hit hard will recover and flourish! It’s crazy to me how much division occurred this year and I am quickly reminded of the Bible scriptures:

2 Timothy 3:1-5 But understand this, that in the last days there will come times of difficulty. For people will be lovers of self, lovers of money, proud, arrogant, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, heartless, unappeasable, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not loving good, treacherous, reckless, swollen with conceit, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid such people.

Luke 12:53 They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against her daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law.”

This year definitely took its mark on everyone’s lives and we cant for at least a long time go back to how it was no matter how much we try.  The words have been said, the actions have been done and the fear has set in alot of peoples lives.

I want to share openly and honestly what 2020 did for me on every level.  If you don’t know me, I am what most people call a “conspiracy theorist”.  If you watched the Fall of the Cabal earlier this year, it opened up a huge rabbit hole for alot of people.  I did know most of that information in that video, but the fact that alot of eyes were open was huge to me.  I am used to people thinking I’m crazy or that there is no way these things happen, but I never get mad because I just know peoples eyes arnt open or didn’t want to be open.  The fact now that people question and do their own research on every topic is HUGE to me! I think we need to do more of this and not turn on the TV and just believe what a station or 2 says.  I am firm believer in not believing the media.

Another thing is I looked around when we were in our pandemic shutdown and even though alot of people lost jobs or had to work from home, I do think the country needed a little bit of slowing down and looking at their lives a little more.  I certainly did even though I am an essential worker.  My job let us for a month or 2 give us 3 and 4 day weekends so we couldn’t work together because no one can do our job but 6 of us…..honestly, so they had to separate us!  During that time my husband and I worked on our farm house, built a back patio and got things done that we wouldn’t of had time to do or it would of been a longer process if not for the extra time.

My husband and I also for the past couple of years have been praying on where God wants us to move too. We have felt that Wichita Falls is not where God wants us to stay and this year we really feel like we got confirmation on where He wants us to go.  It’s NOT a place I would of chosen, but honestly God laid it on my heart first and Joseph was excited.  I think God knew He needed to lay it on my heart, because I would of fought the whole time.  Because of this year and all of the left side and right side division, we actually cut out alot of places we had thought we may want to live, but how they handled this pandemic, we didn’t agree so we marked those off our lists.  We are still open to God changing and guiding us where He wants us to go.

This year my business grew so much and I feel so blessed.  I figured out that I want to specialize in Boudoir and I have the best clients and I’m not just saying that. I got partnered with Crunch Fitness and also Adam and Eve and had my first Boudoir event. I met every goal that I set for myself in my business and I feel so proud of myself.  I definitely couldn’t of done this without my clients, my husbands support and God directing me.

My husband and I this year travelled to 7 different states and got to go on a vacation to the beach with our friends this summer.  We did both end up getting the virus earlier this year and I was the sickest I had ever been in my whole life and had symptoms for 3 months afterwards.  I actually still struggle occasionally with some coughing that I’m sure is scarring on my lungs.

This year Joseph and I faced some things privately that we haven’t shared with anyone and I hope one day I can open up about it more.  I also want to say that this year, I got to bless alot more people through my blessings and it makes my heart explode of happiness to see smiles on peoples faces.

I don’t know what this next year is going to be like or will bring.  I’m praying it gets better and we get back in to a regular routine.  I do think we need to be more nice to other people and their choices.  I pray for small businesses and people who have lost hours or their job to get back on their feet to provide for their family.  We live in the best country and we need to join hands and support each other and encourage each other!

I could honestly keep writing, but I will stop here!  I do pray for everyone to have a safe New Years and also a blessed year! Thank you for your love and support with me following my passion/dreams/goals/future/etc.  It really means alot to me!  I love you all!